It is late tonight and everyone has gone to bed. I am refecting on how much I love each of my children. I am so proud of each one of them and what they are doing at this moment. I want to help each one of them and be there when they need me. I know that my children don't turn to for everything and that is part of growing up. They need to be making their own decitions in their own lives. My father always gave me this thought "There is always a long end and a short end to everything and you need to look at both ends to make any decision. " I know that is a very simple statement. Sometimes I haven't taken the time to look at both ends enough and weighed my opions long enough and then made a decision and then went to Heavenly father to ask him if it was the right decision. I know that Heavenly Father wants us to make some decicion on our own. but he will be there when he is needed. But he wants us to be mature enough to listen to the spirit when it comes. The advice that I gave to D.J. when he was set apart at the Stake Center was to always have a Morning Prayer and then Ponder for a little while. Let yourself listen to the Spirit before that day started. Keep a note pad handy and write down anything that comes to you. Then follow the spirits guidance. When I gave this advice to D.J. the Stake President really like what I had to say to D.J. , I pray that D.J. does listen to the spirit. There will be a time that the Spirit will speak to him at odd moments and he needs to be open enough to recognize that it is the spirit telling him somthing and he needs to keep a note pad with him to write them down. Then I told him to write some of these inspirations in his journal. So that he can reflect back on those moments. I keep a note pad by my bed always. I always have my Morning Prayer to start my day. I wait and listen to get guidance and Help for each of my children. I pray for Zade and Ember. I pray for Coltin. I pray for D.J. and Cameron. And the I pray for Milo that he comes home safely from driving. But now Milo is in my Prayes more often that he will beable to find a job. I know that Heavenfather is watching over my Children everyday. I pray that Heavenly Father protects them from Harm. Like Coltin in Jail. I ask that he watches over him and protects him at all times. and that Goes for Ember and D.J. and Zade and Also Cameron. I can't always be there to protect my children from lifes bumps in the dark, But I have faith that Heavenly Father will be there for them for me. Ember is around alot of people I don't know I pray that she makes wise decision on the people she hangs around with. I really don't want anyone to take advantage of her beyond her will. Some people will put on a very convinsing mask and deep down they are truely someone else that you really don't know. Any type of relationship takes time wheather it be a boyfriend or a girlfriend. If you weigh in the long end and short end of that person under different situations you have a better chance of make a good decision. Then I alway feel better when I have gone to Heavenly Father with that decision. Then I wait. I know he will answer in his time. I always keep in mend my question. Sometime I think that maybe I need to word it better. Then I ask Heavenly Father to help me to ask for something in a better way. It comes to me and I ask again in the way he would want me to ask. This Life has alot of ups and downs. This life has twist and turns. Tials are just part of Heavenly Fathers Plan to test us. Trials are blessings to learn from and to grow. Heavenly Father has place alot of absticals in my life to go through. I know I will be a better person by having gone through these obsticals gracefully and sometime not so gracefully. I have so many blessing to be thankful for and I have 5 main ones.

Well today is the Day that my Son D.J. goes on his Mission to the Philippines. I am very Proud of him but at the same time I am scared for him this is a big step for him and I know that he can handle it. He has spent all night getting ready to go. Last night he had friends stop by to see him off. and he went up to his friend, Hayden's house. Last night we went to Bro & sis. Lowe's house to get a picture take of him for the Ward Plaque. My sister and her Husband and son Darin came over from Cedar to see him off. D.J. went over the his Grandfathers to see them. He also said good by to his grandfather, Pat Lindsay. It has bee a whirl-wind these last couple of day. I am kinda sad to see D.J. go. I am this way with all my children. When the imbark on the world on their own. It's a scary world out their, but D.J. will be fine.
Just a tid-bit of info Milo was let go from his Job last night. We are all kind of depressed over this, but today is D.J.'s Day and we cannot let something like this effect us. We are going up to the Stake Center to set-upart D.J. for his Mission. Then we will be heading North to Provo to the Missionary Training Center. I have talked with Ember and Milo's mother and their are meeting us their well we still have things to do before we go. Like parking Pass to find.

Getting Ready - D.J.'s MTC Drop-off

D.J. is spending the Day in his room packing his luggage. He spent the day yesterday, working out all the finances for his Mission. I went to the Bank with D.J. so that I could help him in that way. He also was try to ty up loose ends with his friends also. D.J. didn't spend dinner with us last night he went to the Yardley's for a Philippino Dinner with their family. I also spent time on the phone with Ember and Helen. Ember helped me with this Blog. I also worked on the finances for Cameron 's Broken Leg. I Went down to the School District to get some information. I have been spending a little time writing a letter to the School District. I will finish this Blog to night when I get a brake.

January 1, 2010 Today, I have been working on the Ward Newsletter and Program. I have been on the phone with Milo. He is stuck down in Las Vegas for the night. He will be back tomorrow Morning. D.J. went North to Salt Lake with some friends. The were going to do baptias for the Dead a the Temples in the Salt Lake Valley. Zade was here playing games on the new Wii games. Coltin Called I had a nice Visit with him. He really didn't ask for anything this time. When D.J. Gets home I plan on helping him to finish getting ready for his Mission. I am realy going to miss D.J. tamendiously. We drop him off a the MTC January 6th this coming Wednesday. I am not sure as to what time Yet. Milo Can't go. He has to work. I hope Zade can come up with us. I hope tha maybe Ember will be able to join us at the MTC. to say good-by. I am posting D.J. announcement to my Blog.

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I am going thru old Emails tonight. Zade went to his Missionary Reunion today in North Salt Lake. I went to Salt Lake City, yesterday. Dad had surgery on his Eye lid. the Doctor cut out some Cancer that had bee growing for a couple of years now. A lump had been taken of 2 years ago. I offered to take Dad in my Jeep, but Helen insisted that she takes her Car. She has a tendency to get her way alot of the time. I am glad that Dad was feeling ok after to surgery. I wanted to stop and visit with Coltin. I had a nice visit with him. Helen took Dad to Cabela's while visited Coltin. We stopped to Visit Mother also. It was a long Visit. Mom was quit agitated at times. We got home at a decent hour and I was glad. Helen and I had a Yard sale last weekend. I made $400.00 Dollars for D.J.'s Mission. The Bad part of the hole thing was that Helen insisted that she take all the rest of the Yard Sale stuff get taken to her house for another Yard Sale for the next weekend. Well she ended up not having the Yard sale and unloaded the whole truck her self and got made at me. She sat and leccured me about having so much stuff. I wanted my stuff to be take to Deseret Industies. Well for now on I will ellininate my stuff and take it to D.I. and not have any more Yard Sales.

My First Blog.

Good Morning World. You Color my World. It is Srping time. The Grass is turning Green. This week we are starting our Garden. Milo and I bought a new Humming bird Fedder. We bought an other bag of Bird Seed. I need to find a bucket to put the Bird Seed into it. I hope the Deer don't eat the Bird Seed. I need to be diligent in keeping the lid on the Bird Seed this Year. D.J. pulled up the Pirakantha Bush by the roots from the front of the house. He Dragged the Bush around the east side of the house and into the back yard and out the back to the street. This last week the city came around and picked up the bush and the trash that was left there. I started the Morning with a phone call from my son, Zade. He is traveling home. He is in Ohio. He is moving home for right now. I don't know where I am going to put him. He maybe sleeping on the Couch for awhile. I just called Ember on the phone I enjoy visiting with her every week on the phone. She talks alot about her friend Bill (William Keifer). She goes on and on about all his good works. She says that he is not the one. I hope she leaves room for some one else to come into her life. Anyway, she now has changed her blog so that I can not get on it and read it. I will miss it tramendously. Reading her blog has givin me a great insight to my daughters inner thoughts and about her life. I have developed a great respect for her. It has been hard for me to communicate with my daughter over the past few years. She has had hard feallings towards me and I understand to some degree why. But to some degree it has been very difficult. I have been trying to be a Mom and not her friend. I was hoping that someday she would grow into a more mature Woman and we would grow to be friends. I know she has had feeling towards her father and I understand that.

Milo is being a little nicer these days. He's not yelling at me so much. D.J. had his Seminary Graduation last night. It turned out really nice. It was held at the Beaver Stake Center. He received a nice Deploma of Achievemnet. I am very Proud of Him. I am so very glad that he has the friends that he does have. He will miss them when they all go out in the world to lead there own lives. D. J. will be left here in Beaver woirking. I will say this, I will enjoy having him home this Summer. Because after this Summer he will go on his Mission and after that I am not sure. Zade is coming home to live for a Years or so. I hope he cam find a job. Coltin is doing ok. I get Phone Calls two to three times a week. His Parole Hearing is coming up in June. I plan to go to that.